Since I’ve had a headache a good part of the evening, I decided to try Gamma Meditation System 2.0 before going to bed. (This time I did the first 30-minute segment.)

I relaxed very quickly and quieted my chatty mind. Actually the chatty mind thing was a priority, as I’ve been allowing it to overwhelm me over the past couple of days. So I was determined not to make it a focus this time. And it worked.

I found myself riding in-between the “partially asleep/fully awake” mode. But let me clarify… I wasn’t asleep. It’s a feeling like being asleep. I’m just extremely relaxed. My mind feels a little hazy in this mode. But I’m still aware that I’m not fully asleep. (Confused yet? :) )

And what made it really odd was that twice during the meditation I started talking gibberish.

The first time I did it, I shocked myself. I thought, “What the heck just happened???” Then towards that final 5 minutes, I did it again.

I don’t know what I meant to say, as I wasn’t thinking about anything in particular. There was no sense of discomfort or fright. And it only lasted a couple of seconds. But both times I felt completely caught off guard.

I’m finding that the more I listen to the CD, the more my life takes these very unique twists and turns. This is all so NOT what I was expecting when I first started this journey. And that’s the most interesting part. These moments are fleeting, but they always catch my attention in ways that I least expect it.

I question what does it all mean? How do all of these little pieces fit together to form the larger picture? I’m still not sure yet. Not even close.