Although today was a little less impressive than yesterday, it did have some highlights.

My goal was to get back into the seeing clearly with my eyes closed mode (which I’ve spoken about in previous posts).

I tried the cleaning of the third eye window exercise that I did yesterday. And then I looked out of the visualized window. It definitely didn’t have the same brightness or intensity that it did yesterday. It looked like a normal visualization.

Then I imagined myself taking a flash light and shining it from the inside of my head, to the outside world – still through the third eye. I still couldn’t get that same color intensity and brightness that I’ve experienced when I’m seeing clearly with my eyes closed.

I find it to be the oddest thing that I can’t readily visualize that brightness and intensity. I remember what it looks like. And if I’m thinking about a previous meditation, I recall the brightness.

But when I’m consciously trying to put it into a visualization, it doesn’t work. The colors I see are always far more muted. They simply don’t have that same sparkle.

When I eased up on trying, I let my mind just relax. Flashes of brightness and intensity then started coming. However it wasn’t like looking at a movie, which is how seeing clearly with my eyes closed normally appeared.

I saw brightness out of the corner of my closed eye. A scene would appear in a circle, then the circle would begin to shrink in size until it was nothing. Then a wave-like shape revealing a bright scene.

I didn’t try to control it, for fear of losing it. I was just a spectator.

As usual I dozed off for a few minutes. And when I woke up it was to the brightest bright I’ve seen yet. No scenery. Just a bright whiteness. Okay, it was a whiteness… but I don’t want the whiteness to be the focus. It was the brightness that grabbed my attention. But I never opened my eyes, nor did I want to.

I was both nervous and excited at the same time. It gave me such a rush.

At this time I think my body was asleep, because I physically felt like my body was in another position than the one I was in. So I’m wondering if this was a out-of-body experience. Then again, I moved a pinky, and I felt my physical body was where it was supposed to be.

I am seriously enjoying the experimental phase of this. But I wish I understood a little more of what’s happening. Today I almost feel like crying, and I don’t know why. I’m thinking about contacting Dr. Jeffrey Thompson, the creator of the CD I’m listening to.

Wow… did I go on a ride today!

This was one of the more exciting experiences I’ve had gamma meditating. I was able to do it early in the day. And I really attempted to focus on what was happening.

I found that I periodically went into the seeing clearly with my eyes closed state that I’ve spoken about in previous posts.

So while I was meditating I tried to create an exercise that would put me into that state. I ended up dozing off for a few minutes.

When I came back, I tried it again. This time it worked. And it shocked me because it did work!

Since I’m assuming that the seeing clearly with my eyes closed state is a form of clairvoyance, I visualized myself cleaning a window behind my third eye. As I was cleaning this window, I looked out and I saw a bright green field. The coloring was bright and oddly vivid, as I’d seen before when I was in the seeing clearly with my eyes closed state.

In my visualization, I quickly jumped back from the window when I saw the bright, green grass. I was surprised to see it.

Now here’s the thing… my purposeful visualizations are colorful. But they aren’t the same quality, nor do they have the same feeling as the seeing clearly with my eyes closed visions. I’ve been trying to purposefully visualize with that same quality, and it never has the same look.

It’s not a subtle difference. It’s a huge difference between the two. Seeing clearly with my eyes closed produces a very unique intensity. Dare I say ’shocking’ again… but yes, it is shocking.

Throughout the meditation (which lasted 20 minutes) I kept having brief seeing clearly with my eyes closed moments.

During one of those moments I felt like I was lying down on a sidewalk. And a couple (man and a woman) were walking over me. They couldn’t see me though.

I actually flinched during this moment. It was so damn clear I really thought they were going to step on me.

During another one I watched a man in a suit crossing a street. There was something wrong with his back. And as he was walking I could see after affect images of him in the previous space he occupied. Kind of like a slow motion video.

In another one, I saw a boy turning the pages of a book. This was the least clearest of them all. I could only see his silhouette.

So what does this all mean? I don’t know.

The experiment continues tomorrow. In the meantime, I’m going to keep mentally cleaning that window behind my third eye.

In an earlier post I asked a question regarding the ‘why’ of my experiences during gamma meditation.

For example, why do I have those instances of clearly seeing things even though my eyes are closed. I inquired whether this was an instance of clairvoyance, since the scenes were 100 times more vivid than a regular visualization.

Gamma Meditation reader Zane sent me some info that he culled from a psychic group on MSN. I found the details to be quite interesting.

The Gamma Waves

The gamma waves are those of very deep psychic powers, like those of the psychic master, or of the medium, in a trance. They have a frequency of 14 cycles per second.

The amount of electricity recorded in the brain varies with the depth of consciousness. In light sleep, delta waves (psychic power waves) appear. The alpha waves (those of your subconscious mind) still remain, but they are then superimposed upon the slower frequencies of the delta waves. In deep sleep, however, the alpha waves disappear altogether and the delta waves replace them. (That occurs too, during hypnosis.) The Psychic Power Center is then in complete control of the brain. In some instances, though, the delta frequency is even replaced by a faster frequency, the gamma waves. However, these appear only in the psychic master or the medium, and in you only when you have developed, or can use at will, all of your unknown self.

In summary:

1. Your alpha waves are the nerve electricity of your subconscious mind, or the nerve electricity of your known self.

2. Your beta waves are the nerve electricity of your conscious mind, or of the sense and muscle areas of your brain. That, too, is the nerve electricity of your known self,

3. Your delta waves and their stupendous voltage, as well as your theta waves, are the nerve electricity of your Psychic Power Center. That is the nerve electricity of your unknown self.

4. Your gamma waves (if you ever emanate any) are the nerve electricity of your total unknown self. They are the brain waves of the psychic master, or of the medium, in a trance.

When I first began meditating again, one of my main priorities was to enhance my intuitive/psychic ability – (which I believe we are all born with). But when it comes to intuitive ability, I’ve always found myself to be more of a ‘knower’ than a ’seer.’

Perhaps now (with regular gamma meditation breaks) my intuitive ’seeing’ abilities are becoming strengthened.

I skipped my meditation session yesterday. And today I realized that I really do feel off centered when I haven’t had any meditation time.

It reminds me of the saying, “When the student is ready, the teacher will appear.” My brain is clearly on student mode. It wants the benefit of gamma meditation. Dedication is key here – at least for me.

Anyway, I decided to meditate in a different part of the house today. And what a liberating feeling that was. It truly felt like a new and unique experience.

During my session, I mentally saw myself always meditating in the same location. And the thought occurred that I have a tendency to stay in a single position, even though changing my outlook/approach/position would be beneficial.

I know this has to do with the way I run my business. So it was an interesting analogy.

Also while meditating I had one of those vibrant closed eyes moments. I’ve spoken about it before… when I begin seeing images, and I think my eyes are open, but they’re really closed.

Honestly, I can’t remember what the images were. I just kept trying to figure out how to sustain the feeling. And I did manage to get a few more seconds than usual.

What are these visualizations? Is it some form of clairvoyance? I noticed that I felt a WIDE opening of my third eye while meditating.

It feels like I’m physically looking at something with my eyes wide open. It’s so clear and real, that it surpasses any other focused visualization I’ve ever had. If you know what this state is, please comment on this post.

May your meditative states take you to places far and wide, small and powerful, known and unknown.

Many blessings,

Alexis