Early on I had the seeing with my eyes closed experiences. I’ve had the vivid color experiences. I’ve had the most lucid dreams ever. And now when I listen to it, I feel energy hands.

I can only describe it as an intense heaviness in the palms of my hands. Almost like something is big and weirdly cushy in my hands. I say ‘weirdly cushy’ because it’s unlike anything I’ve physically felt on my hands before.

As I was meditating, I had them resting on my lap. And at one point, it felt like they were floating in the air.

I could feel that weird cushy feeling around my entire hand, including the back. There was so much energy being generated that I actually stopped feeling my lap for a few minutes.

It sounds odd, I know. Perhaps even a little scary.

But when it’s happening, it doesn’t feel scary. It feels unique. I guess I just like stretching beyond the physical boundries.

Although I haven’t posted here in the previous year, I’ve still been using my gamma meditation CD. Mainly doing it at night before going to bed.

Is it still as life altering as it was when I first started in 2007? I believe it is.

Let me give you some insight into what’s been going on:

HEALING HANDS

Several months ago I accidentally burned my leg on the iron. As you can probably imagine, it hurt like crazy and my ankle was constantly throbbing.

I have a friend who does Reiki, and I’d been experimenting with generating healing energy in my hands.

So I figured this was a good time to try it out. I was able to quiet my mind and I felt the healing energy pulsating into my hands. I put my hands on the area surrounding the burn, and imagined a white healing light going into the burn.

The pain barely subsided. But I was able to relax and go to sleep.

The next morning the alarm went off and I got up to take a shower. I had washed up for several minutes before I realized that I didn’t feel the burn any more.

I looked at my ankle. The burn mark was still there. But the pain had completely diminished. There was no soreness to the touch as one would feel the day after a nasty burn.

Maybe a month later my daughter was running down the hallway and crashed into the corner of the wall, taking off some face skin in the process.

She was screaming and crying in pain. I mean she scraped the wall pretty hard.

After cleaning the scar, I had her lie down on the sofa and I put on the Gamma Meditation CD, and began directing energy into my hands.

I put my hands over her face - (not touching her face) - and told her to try to relax. She said she didn’t feel anything, but she had stopped crying, so I continued.

I directed healing energy into the scar for maybe 10 minutes. Then my arms got tired!

She was VERY relaxed when I was done. She said that the pain had gone down a lot.

I still wasn’t quite sure if I had really helped her, until a few weeks later.

For some reason, she had a cramp in her leg. When I asked her if she needed some Tylenol, she told me to put the healing hands on her leg instead.

Now she makes me do it all the time, even when she’s not in pain! Lucky me!

SPONTANEOUS INTUITIVE MOMENTS

I really hoped the Gamma Meditation CD would help me become more intuitive. And it hasn’t disappointed in that department.

While listening to the CD I was inspired to create my own system for ‘hearing’ messages. I wrote about it in The Handbook for Responsible Creators – which is a free e-book.

It’s not like knowing the six winning lottery numbers.

It’s more like a quiet guidance. For example, sometimes when I’m writing, I’ll get an idea that I KNOW didn’t come from my brain. I think a lot of writers get that. But it happens a lot more now.

Sometimes a single word will flash through my mind, or even a random image. I pay attention to those thoughts because I know they’re intuitive sparks.

The other day, I was debating about using a piece of software for another one of my blogs.

I went and had lunch, and when I got back to my e-mail, there was a message that said, “Flexibility will carry you through.” In sea of e-mail subject lines, it was the FIRST one that caught my eye.

One of the products I was testing was called Flexible. Needless to say, I knew it was a message for me.

Stay tuned… I’m going to be letting you in on some other new developments.

Viva Gamma Meditation CD. Get your copy, and let me know what you think.

I stopped gamma meditating every single day because it just wasn’t feasible for me to be able to squeeze it in every day. Instead I’ve scaled down to several times a week. And just recently I introduced a mix of Theta Meditation into the mix.

Here are some of the more notable changes that have happened in my life:

PRAYER

I went through a period of seemingly constant prayer. Not a prayer for anything in particular. I just found myself always thanking the Universe for my blessings.

It’s not that prayer is a strange concept. But I became a habitual pray-er overnight. Everything was begun with a prayer and followed up with a prayer.

I’m still praying. But now I’m going through a slightly different period of introspection that makes me wonder, who am I ultimately praying to.

I’ll go into this topic in another post.

HIGHER ASSISTANCE

When I work I feel like I have a CONSTANT assistant guiding me. I’ve had concepts flying at me that I knew came from a higher source. Not to say that I’m stupid, and that I couldn’t have created these ideas using my own brain power.

It was like being an actress up on stage… forgetting your lines… and having someone whisper them to you.

I feel a very distinct separation of me (Alexis) and the Higher ME. The thoughts come across in very different ways. Very clear and distinctly different.

Not like “I wonder if this will work…” More like, “Say this… do this…” And knowing that saying it or doing it is 100% correct.

INTUITIVE ABILITY and SYNCHRONICITY

This is where I’ve seen some of the more remarkable changes.

I’ve always believed in the concept of synchronicity. And I’ve had specific instances where I’ve seen synchronicity play itself out in my life. But I’m finding that synchronicity is less of “sometime” thing, and more of a “look-around-it’s-happening-all-the-time” thing.

Your environment… your immediate surroundings… will show you exactly what’s going on in your life. Your everyday life is a series of synchronistic events. However you don’t normally see it, because you don’t expect to see it.

You normally only see it when you notice the big things. For instance, you’re thinking about an old high school buddy, and suddenly they pop up at the local coffee shop. We attribute these types of events as synchronistic because they appear out of our range of normality.

Just recently I was thinking about why I hadn’t reached a certain financial goal that I’d been striving for over the course of many years.

I looked around at my immediate environment. I was working in the dark. The only light in the room was coming from the computer.

If I got up and turned the light on I’d see that there were several big messy piles of paperwork that needed my attention. They’d been sitting there since I moved.

Relating this to my business life, and why I hadn’t reached my targeted goal, a lot of it has to do with me figuratively sitting in the dark. Not being willing to turn on the light and clear up some clutter. Just shifting the clutter around and allowing my eyes to ignore it. I’m used to working in the dark. It’s okay.

Is it synchronistic that I was sitting in the dark? Intuitive that I see the correlation between the dark and my failed financial goal? I believe it’s both.

A CALL TO SERVICE

I’ve always looked at myself as a hardcore money maker, not a humanitarian.

But in recent months I’ve volunteered as an anonymous bone marrow donor. I’ve signed up to become hospice volunteer. And I’m feeling like I want to devote my life to matters of the spirit.

It’s like the door is open. I see the door is open. But I’m dancing all around it.

The scene that plays in my head is from an old Indiana Jones movie. Indiana has to cross what looks like a bottomless pit. He is forced to take a step of faith into the pit, only to discover that what looks like a bottomless pit is really an optical illusion. There are rocks there to support him across the chasm.

I know that I will soon be placing my foot on what looks like a bottomless pit. But when? That’s the question.

In any case, I had two noteworthy experiences since then.

A couple of nights ago I was going to sleep. Within 5-10 minutes of lying there, I went into an eyes closed but seeing clearly moment. And I WASN’T listening to the CD. It just happened spontaneously.

Needless to say I was quite surprised. So surprised that as soon as I realized what was happening, the moment stopped. The shock of it literally stopped the experience. Darnnit!

Last night I listened to the Gamma Meditation System 2.0 and had quite a few eyes closed but seeing clearly moments.

This time I was less surprised and approached it with a greater level of confidence and relaxation. This seemed to be the right combination of emotions to keep them coming.

At the time I was really trying to go to sleep. So I wasn’t wholly focused on the pictures I was receiving. But I see how that more relaxed state of mind seems to be more conducive for receiving those images.

And I don’t know if this is related, but earlier this week I had a rather intuitive experience.

I was working on a separate blog that I’ve been running since April of last year. (Not this one.) As I was writing the posts a quick thought appeared in my mind. That maybe my time could be better spent by shutting the blog down. It was more or less a fun thing to do, rather than a money maker.

Fast forward to Tuesday. I go to post a message on that other blog, and the blog itself was NOWHERE to be found. Mind you, I hadn’t changed anything with the blog. I hadn’t made any updates. It just stopped working. There was no trace of it.

Hmmmm…. was that initial thought I had about closing the blog down a prompting from a higher source? Was the blog shutting down part of the divine plan for me to actually close it down?

I really want to continue writing that blog, but how can I deny the synchronicity of the events?

Alas perhaps the universe “does not” work in strange and mysterious ways. Sometimes it’s as clear as the nose on your face.

The first time I saw a flag waving. The flag was on a building – possibly a hotel or an office building. And that particular instance lasted at least 5 seconds, which is considerably longer than the flashes I normally get. In my mind I was actually quite surprised at how long it lasted.

During the second instance of seeing clearly with my eyes closed, I saw a bag. Like someone was showing me a bag. It was extremely clear and vivid.

I’m always excited by seeing clearly with my eyes closed. But in the same light, I have to admit that I’m baffled by the images I get. I don’t know what any of them mean. Furthermore, I haven’t seen any of them (yet) in real life.

I mean what makes a bag and a flag appear out of nowhere??? The images are often so random, that I forget about them before I’m done with the meditation. I don’t know how or why they apply to me. And that’s a hurdle I’d really like to get over… soon.

For most of the session today I was in a mind awake/body asleep state. It was especially unique because my body twitched a few times, like it was going into a deep sleep.

I often observe my daughter going to sleep, and her body twitches as she’s going off. So that also surprised me – to be able to consciously observe my body sleeping, and actually going through the physical motions associated with going to sleep.

I still have so much to explore.

Gamma Meditation 2.0 CD

My goal was to get back into the seeing clearly with my eyes closed mode (which I’ve spoken about in previous posts).

I tried the cleaning of the third eye window exercise that I did yesterday. And then I looked out of the visualized window. It definitely didn’t have the same brightness or intensity that it did yesterday. It looked like a normal visualization.

Then I imagined myself taking a flash light and shining it from the inside of my head, to the outside world – still through the third eye. I still couldn’t get that same color intensity and brightness that I’ve experienced when I’m seeing clearly with my eyes closed.

I find it to be the oddest thing that I can’t readily visualize that brightness and intensity. I remember what it looks like. And if I’m thinking about a previous meditation, I recall the brightness.

But when I’m consciously trying to put it into a visualization, it doesn’t work. The colors I see are always far more muted. They simply don’t have that same sparkle.

When I eased up on trying, I let my mind just relax. Flashes of brightness and intensity then started coming. However it wasn’t like looking at a movie, which is how seeing clearly with my eyes closed normally appeared.

I saw brightness out of the corner of my closed eye. A scene would appear in a circle, then the circle would begin to shrink in size until it was nothing. Then a wave-like shape revealing a bright scene.

I didn’t try to control it, for fear of losing it. I was just a spectator.

As usual I dozed off for a few minutes. And when I woke up it was to the brightest bright I’ve seen yet. No scenery. Just a bright whiteness. Okay, it was a whiteness… but I don’t want the whiteness to be the focus. It was the brightness that grabbed my attention. But I never opened my eyes, nor did I want to.

I was both nervous and excited at the same time. It gave me such a rush.

At this time I think my body was asleep, because I physically felt like my body was in another position than the one I was in. So I’m wondering if this was a out-of-body experience. Then again, I moved a pinky, and I felt my physical body was where it was supposed to be.

I am seriously enjoying the experimental phase of this. But I wish I understood a little more of what’s happening. Today I almost feel like crying, and I don’t know why. I’m thinking about contacting Dr. Jeffrey Thompson, the creator of the CD I’m listening to.

This was one of the more exciting experiences I’ve had gamma meditating. I was able to do it early in the day. And I really attempted to focus on what was happening.

I found that I periodically went into the seeing clearly with my eyes closed state that I’ve spoken about in previous posts.

So while I was meditating I tried to create an exercise that would put me into that state. I ended up dozing off for a few minutes.

When I came back, I tried it again. This time it worked. And it shocked me because it did work!

Since I’m assuming that the seeing clearly with my eyes closed state is a form of clairvoyance, I visualized myself cleaning a window behind my third eye. As I was cleaning this window, I looked out and I saw a bright green field. The coloring was bright and oddly vivid, as I’d seen before when I was in the seeing clearly with my eyes closed state.

In my visualization, I quickly jumped back from the window when I saw the bright, green grass. I was surprised to see it.

Now here’s the thing… my purposeful visualizations are colorful. But they aren’t the same quality, nor do they have the same feeling as the seeing clearly with my eyes closed visions. I’ve been trying to purposefully visualize with that same quality, and it never has the same look.

It’s not a subtle difference. It’s a huge difference between the two. Seeing clearly with my eyes closed produces a very unique intensity. Dare I say ’shocking’ again… but yes, it is shocking.

Throughout the meditation (which lasted 20 minutes) I kept having brief seeing clearly with my eyes closed moments.

During one of those moments I felt like I was lying down on a sidewalk. And a couple (man and a woman) were walking over me. They couldn’t see me though.

I actually flinched during this moment. It was so damn clear I really thought they were going to step on me.

During another one I watched a man in a suit crossing a street. There was something wrong with his back. And as he was walking I could see after affect images of him in the previous space he occupied. Kind of like a slow motion video.

In another one, I saw a boy turning the pages of a book. This was the least clearest of them all. I could only see his silhouette.

So what does this all mean? I don’t know.

The experiment continues tomorrow. In the meantime, I’m going to keep mentally cleaning that window behind my third eye.

It reminds me of the saying, “When the student is ready, the teacher will appear.” My brain is clearly on student mode. It wants the benefit of gamma meditation. Dedication is key here – at least for me.

Anyway, I decided to meditate in a different part of the house today. And what a liberating feeling that was. It truly felt like a new and unique experience.

During my session, I mentally saw myself always meditating in the same location. And the thought occurred that I have a tendency to stay in a single position, even though changing my outlook/approach/position would be beneficial.

I know this has to do with the way I run my business. So it was an interesting analogy.

Also while meditating I had one of those vibrant closed eyes moments. I’ve spoken about it before… when I begin seeing images, and I think my eyes are open, but they’re really closed.

Honestly, I can’t remember what the images were. I just kept trying to figure out how to sustain the feeling. And I did manage to get a few more seconds than usual.

What are these visualizations? Is it some form of clairvoyance? I noticed that I felt a WIDE opening of my third eye while meditating.

It feels like I’m physically looking at something with my eyes wide open. It’s so clear and real, that it surpasses any other focused visualization I’ve ever had. If you know what this state is, please comment on this post.

I decided to take a late nap around 6pm this evening. And as soon as I got in the bed and closed my eyes, I went into gamma mode.

Not that I was thinking about it or even planning to meditate before going to sleep. It happened rather involuntarily.

My body began the energy vibration, and I felt myself slip into the same mental state that occurs when I’m listening to Gamma Meditation System 2.0.

Even though I was asleep, it wasn’t a deep sleep. And each time I came into semi-consciousness I could tell that I was still in gamma mode. I was actually quite amazed by it all. I guess because it was so unexpected.

Other than that, there were no other unique feelings or experiences today.

I do.

While meditating tonight I began thinking about a spirit guide that I have. No particular reason why. He just passed through my mind.

And while I was thinking about him, another man popped into my mind. And as soon as I saw him, I felt like I was looking at a long, lost friend. I felt like, “Heyyyyy… I KNOW you. Where have you been?”

Granted I don’t consciously know who this guy is. But there was an incredible WOW connection when I saw him. Almost like a puzzle piece had popped into place. Like I remembered him from a specific incident. Perhaps he’s another spirit guide.

Other than that, I still had a rather difficult time fully focusing tonight. I only managed to get through 14 minutes, instead of my usual 30.

At one point I heard a noise that reminded me of a fire alarm. I took the headphones off and realized that it was on the CD. Funny… as much as I listen to this CD, I’d never heard that sound before.

I also noticed that when I took the headphones off to listen for the fire alarm-like sound, my body felt like it was buzzing. Although it seemed to slow down when I took the headphones off. And when I put them back on, I could feel the buzzing again.

I also found this to be quite interesting. In the beginning of this gamma meditation experiment I experienced a strong vibrational energy around my body. And then after a few days it seemed to diminish.

Now I wondering if the energy buzz ever left, or maybe I just got so used to it that I didn’t feel it. I don’t know.

ONE THING I AM NOTICING…

Is that I feel more earth conscious lately. I’ve been in serious recycling mode. I’m turning off the lights as soon as I leave out of the room. I’ve been cutting the paper towels into smaller pieces (for goodness sake). I carry a shopping bag with me now, so I don’t need the extra plastic and paper. I feel both the goodness and the indifference of nature around me.

It’s kind of like my empathetic phase last week, only now it’s strongly directed towards Mother Earth.

I would like to say that I go through moments like this all the time. But I don’t.

I have entered the Gamma Zone – and I like it.