Although today was a little less impressive than yesterday, it did have some highlights.

My goal was to get back into the seeing clearly with my eyes closed mode (which I’ve spoken about in previous posts).

I tried the cleaning of the third eye window exercise that I did yesterday. And then I looked out of the visualized window. It definitely didn’t have the same brightness or intensity that it did yesterday. It looked like a normal visualization.

Then I imagined myself taking a flash light and shining it from the inside of my head, to the outside world – still through the third eye. I still couldn’t get that same color intensity and brightness that I’ve experienced when I’m seeing clearly with my eyes closed.

I find it to be the oddest thing that I can’t readily visualize that brightness and intensity. I remember what it looks like. And if I’m thinking about a previous meditation, I recall the brightness.

But when I’m consciously trying to put it into a visualization, it doesn’t work. The colors I see are always far more muted. They simply don’t have that same sparkle.

When I eased up on trying, I let my mind just relax. Flashes of brightness and intensity then started coming. However it wasn’t like looking at a movie, which is how seeing clearly with my eyes closed normally appeared.

I saw brightness out of the corner of my closed eye. A scene would appear in a circle, then the circle would begin to shrink in size until it was nothing. Then a wave-like shape revealing a bright scene.

I didn’t try to control it, for fear of losing it. I was just a spectator.

As usual I dozed off for a few minutes. And when I woke up it was to the brightest bright I’ve seen yet. No scenery. Just a bright whiteness. Okay, it was a whiteness… but I don’t want the whiteness to be the focus. It was the brightness that grabbed my attention. But I never opened my eyes, nor did I want to.

I was both nervous and excited at the same time. It gave me such a rush.

At this time I think my body was asleep, because I physically felt like my body was in another position than the one I was in. So I’m wondering if this was a out-of-body experience. Then again, I moved a pinky, and I felt my physical body was where it was supposed to be.

I am seriously enjoying the experimental phase of this. But I wish I understood a little more of what’s happening. Today I almost feel like crying, and I don’t know why. I’m thinking about contacting Dr. Jeffrey Thompson, the creator of the CD I’m listening to.

Wow… did I go on a ride today!

This was one of the more exciting experiences I’ve had gamma meditating. I was able to do it early in the day. And I really attempted to focus on what was happening.

I found that I periodically went into the seeing clearly with my eyes closed state that I’ve spoken about in previous posts.

So while I was meditating I tried to create an exercise that would put me into that state. I ended up dozing off for a few minutes.

When I came back, I tried it again. This time it worked. And it shocked me because it did work!

Since I’m assuming that the seeing clearly with my eyes closed state is a form of clairvoyance, I visualized myself cleaning a window behind my third eye. As I was cleaning this window, I looked out and I saw a bright green field. The coloring was bright and oddly vivid, as I’d seen before when I was in the seeing clearly with my eyes closed state.

In my visualization, I quickly jumped back from the window when I saw the bright, green grass. I was surprised to see it.

Now here’s the thing… my purposeful visualizations are colorful. But they aren’t the same quality, nor do they have the same feeling as the seeing clearly with my eyes closed visions. I’ve been trying to purposefully visualize with that same quality, and it never has the same look.

It’s not a subtle difference. It’s a huge difference between the two. Seeing clearly with my eyes closed produces a very unique intensity. Dare I say ’shocking’ again… but yes, it is shocking.

Throughout the meditation (which lasted 20 minutes) I kept having brief seeing clearly with my eyes closed moments.

During one of those moments I felt like I was lying down on a sidewalk. And a couple (man and a woman) were walking over me. They couldn’t see me though.

I actually flinched during this moment. It was so damn clear I really thought they were going to step on me.

During another one I watched a man in a suit crossing a street. There was something wrong with his back. And as he was walking I could see after affect images of him in the previous space he occupied. Kind of like a slow motion video.

In another one, I saw a boy turning the pages of a book. This was the least clearest of them all. I could only see his silhouette.

So what does this all mean? I don’t know.

The experiment continues tomorrow. In the meantime, I’m going to keep mentally cleaning that window behind my third eye.

I skipped my meditation session yesterday. And today I realized that I really do feel off centered when I haven’t had any meditation time.

It reminds me of the saying, “When the student is ready, the teacher will appear.” My brain is clearly on student mode. It wants the benefit of gamma meditation. Dedication is key here – at least for me.

Anyway, I decided to meditate in a different part of the house today. And what a liberating feeling that was. It truly felt like a new and unique experience.

During my session, I mentally saw myself always meditating in the same location. And the thought occurred that I have a tendency to stay in a single position, even though changing my outlook/approach/position would be beneficial.

I know this has to do with the way I run my business. So it was an interesting analogy.

Also while meditating I had one of those vibrant closed eyes moments. I’ve spoken about it before… when I begin seeing images, and I think my eyes are open, but they’re really closed.

Honestly, I can’t remember what the images were. I just kept trying to figure out how to sustain the feeling. And I did manage to get a few more seconds than usual.

What are these visualizations? Is it some form of clairvoyance? I noticed that I felt a WIDE opening of my third eye while meditating.

It feels like I’m physically looking at something with my eyes wide open. It’s so clear and real, that it surpasses any other focused visualization I’ve ever had. If you know what this state is, please comment on this post.

I didn’t meditate today. And for very good reason.

I decided to take a late nap around 6pm this evening. And as soon as I got in the bed and closed my eyes, I went into gamma mode.

Not that I was thinking about it or even planning to meditate before going to sleep. It happened rather involuntarily.

My body began the energy vibration, and I felt myself slip into the same mental state that occurs when I’m listening to Gamma Meditation System 2.0.

Even though I was asleep, it wasn’t a deep sleep. And each time I came into semi-consciousness I could tell that I was still in gamma mode. I was actually quite amazed by it all. I guess because it was so unexpected.

Other than that, there were no other unique feelings or experiences today.

Do you believe in spirit guides?

I do.

While meditating tonight I began thinking about a spirit guide that I have. No particular reason why. He just passed through my mind.

And while I was thinking about him, another man popped into my mind. And as soon as I saw him, I felt like I was looking at a long, lost friend. I felt like, “Heyyyyy… I KNOW you. Where have you been?”

Granted I don’t consciously know who this guy is. But there was an incredible WOW connection when I saw him. Almost like a puzzle piece had popped into place. Like I remembered him from a specific incident. Perhaps he’s another spirit guide.

Other than that, I still had a rather difficult time fully focusing tonight. I only managed to get through 14 minutes, instead of my usual 30.

At one point I heard a noise that reminded me of a fire alarm. I took the headphones off and realized that it was on the CD. Funny… as much as I listen to this CD, I’d never heard that sound before.

I also noticed that when I took the headphones off to listen for the fire alarm-like sound, my body felt like it was buzzing. Although it seemed to slow down when I took the headphones off. And when I put them back on, I could feel the buzzing again.

I also found this to be quite interesting. In the beginning of this gamma meditation experiment I experienced a strong vibrational energy around my body. And then after a few days it seemed to diminish.

Now I wondering if the energy buzz ever left, or maybe I just got so used to it that I didn’t feel it. I don’t know.

ONE THING I AM NOTICING…

Is that I feel more earth conscious lately. I’ve been in serious recycling mode. I’m turning off the lights as soon as I leave out of the room. I’ve been cutting the paper towels into smaller pieces (for goodness sake). I carry a shopping bag with me now, so I don’t need the extra plastic and paper. I feel both the goodness and the indifference of nature around me.

It’s kind of like my empathetic phase last week, only now it’s strongly directed towards Mother Earth.

I would like to say that I go through moments like this all the time. But I don’t.

I have entered the Gamma Zone – and I like it.