This morning my daughter still has a fever. So no school again. And I am once again suffering with a headache. But this time I decided not to take any medicine right away.

After having a bite to eat, I go Gamma Meditation System again. Perhaps the sound will help ease the headache.

My goal for this morning is to focus my thoughts for the entire hour – even through the second 30-minute segment, which I wasn’t too crazy about yesterday.

If you’re not into meditation, devoting an hour to a focused thought might seem hard. But when you’re listening to this CD time seems to fly by. There’s so much happening mentally and to my energetic body. When it’s over I want to start it up again. It’s like being high (yes… I did ‘inhale’ in my younger days), without drugs.

As I begin my morning session, I decide that my focus is going to be on the connectedness of everything.

Almost as soon as the CD starts, I settle into a comfortable vibration. By vibration I mean it feels like my aura is vibrating, not necessarily my physical body. Nonetheless, it can still be physically felt.

I feel an expansion of my aura. In the previous 2 days that expansion took the form of a wave. Kind of like a choppy wave at the beach. But this time it’s a solid expansion. I feel like there’s a circle of energy around me, and that circle is growing and growing. And it vibrates as it grows. I am only barely aware of my physical body.

In my mind’s eye I see the room that I’m in. The room is vibrating, and I notice the space in between the solidness.

The room clearly looks like a room. But it has the feeling that it’s all ripped up into little pieces. And I can see the space surrounding those little pieces. I’m thinking that if this is the true nature of matter, then why don’t I just fall through the floor. And at that moment I see everything as completely solid matter again. No vibrations.

During this time I fade in and out of clarity. I don’t feel as though I’m falling asleep, but I probably am. When I come to, it’s always to some bright, colorful flash of a thought.

These flashes are random, and appear to have no meaning to anything going on in my life. But they keep coming.

I have to make a mental note to begin remembering these scenes.

LATER THAT NIGHT…

At bed time I put on my headset and turn on the CD.

I decided that I was going to focus on the connectedness of all things. And as I previously mentioned, I would try to remember the flashes that I was seeing during the meditation.

However after tending to my sick daughter all day, I wasn’t able to recall the flashes.

I ended up falling asleep and waking up approximately 4 minutes before the end of the first 30-minute segment. I don’t know what’s happening on the CD around that time frame.

But I find that if I’ve dozed off, I always seem to wake up around those final 4 minutes. And if I’m awake, I always feel something happening in my heart chakra. Like a surge of electricity is going through it. My physical heart even beats faster.

My dreams were a little less vivid in color and brightness tonight. But I was able to remember one of them.

In the dream I was talking to two parents at my daughters school. We were saying goodbye before the Christmas break. And we kissed each other on the cheek – which is what we always do anyway.

I suppose it was my way of saying goodbye to them, since I knew my daughter probably wouldn’t be well enough to go to school.

FYI, I had to take an Advil to ease my headache.

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